Broken Anticaption

You know the feeling of anticipation?

When you mind is doing a complete rotation.

And excitement dancing up your back.

Your heart beating so fast it might have an attack.

And when your breathing is fierce,

and your eyes are sprouting tears.

And you jump for joy,

and fall to the ground,

with disappointment.

Your mind now stuck on 360 wondering, what happened?

Your heart blackens,

as you grit your teeth.

Trying to send those angry tears back beneath,

your eyes, which are now blurry and frantic with rage.

All thoughts trapped in a selfish cage.

I didn't expect this.

Why do I have this?

It's not what I wanted.

I don't understand.

You got my hopes so hung up on this idea,

I couldn't see another outcome.

I’m so disappointed.

This entire thing now is pointless,

But you are hung up on the details.

My mind is spinning fairy tales,

where I could have gotten my happy ending,

but that in itself is condescending.

Because you put in the time and effort,

to give this gift to to me, it is quite clever.

And I’m just too daft to look past the disgust sitting on my nose.

Maybe if I went in with a clear head I would have known,

and I would have appreciated it more.

But I guess I didn't.

And now the beauty of this gift is finished,

because I torn at it with my words,

screamed things that were absurd.

And I am sorry.

For is have ruined your masterpiece,

in order to fulfill my selfish needs.